Nikuba kuti basikulanga-langa makani baamba kuti kulila kweetwa akaambo kakufwidwa kuli muzipanzi zisiyene-siyene pesi umwi awumwi ulila munzila iisiyene. Kulila munzila iisiyene kwaamba kuti bamwi takubachisi na kufwidwa naakuti “balilila mukati,” kabatabbusyi mbubalimvwa? Teembukubede pe. Kuzumina kuti muntu wafwidwa akutondeezya mbalimvwa kulagwasya pesi nzila yakutondeezya kulila “teeyimwi” pe. Bantu balila busiyene akaambo kaziyanza, mbubabede, nzibakaswaana mubuumi naakuti kweendelana ambaafwa muntu ooyo.

Chimwi chiindi bantu ngatabazi pe kuti bazoolimvwa biyeni nibazoofwidwa. Pesi kuli bumwi buyumu-yumu mbubakonzya kuswaana alubo balakonzya kulimvwa munzila njibalimvwaayo bamwi bantu nibafwidwa. Atulange-lange zitobela.

Kulilya mumoyo. Kulila, kuyeeya muntu wakafwa akulimvwa busiyene, nzintu zikonzya kuchitika muntu naafwidwa. Kukataazikana kulakonzya kwiindilila akaambo kakuyeeya muntu ooyo naakuti kumulota. Kumasaangunino muntu naafwidwa zilakonzya kumugwisya moyo akutazisyoma zyachitika. Tiina uchiyeeyede mbaakalimvwa mulumaakwe naakafwa katayeeyeli pe. Wakati: “Nizyakachitika ndakamana manguzu. Kumasaangunino ndakakachilwa kulila. Ndakayoowa zyakuti chimwi chiindi ndakali kukachilwa kuyoya. Teendakali kusyoma pe kuti wafwa choonzyo.”

Kukataazikana, kunyema akulipa mulandu. Ivan wakati: “Kufwa kwamwaneesu Eric wakali aminyaka iili 24, kwakali kupa kuti ime amukayintu wangu Yolanda tunyeme chimwi chiindi. Eezi zyakatugambya nkaambo kuzwa chiindi teetwakazi pe kuti tuli bantu banyema. Twakali kulipa mulandu chiindi nitwakali kuyeeya kuti nikuli twakachita zyiingi kuti tugwasye mwaneesu kuti apone.” Alejandro wakafwidwa amukayintu wakali waba achiindi chilamfu kachiswa, wakati: “Kumatalikilo ndakali kuyeeya kuti Leza ulikundilekela kuti ndibe mumapenzi aali boobu nkaambo ndili sizibi. Mpawo ndakazoolipa mulandu wakuti ndilikusola Leza akaambo kazintu zyakachitika.” Alubo Kostas waambwa muchiiyo chayinda wakati: “Chimwi chiindi ndakali kunyemena kuti mukayintu wangu Sophia wakafwidaanzi. Mpawo ndakazoolipa mulandu akaambo kakulimvwa munzila iili boobu. Kumamanino ndakazoobona kuti wamukayintu wangu taakaliyandila pe kufwa.”

Kuyeeya zintu zipa kukataazikana. Mizeezo yamuntu wafwidwa chimwi chiindi ilakonzya kutabeleka kabotu. Muchikozyano, muntu wafwidwa ulakonzya kuyeeya kuti muntu wakafwa ulakonzya kumumvwa, kumubona naakuti kumuguma. Alubo kulakonzya kumuyumina kubikkila maanu akuyeeya zimwi zintu. Tiina wakaamba kuti: “Chimwi chiindi nindakali kuzuwa abamwi, mizeezo yangu yakali kuba kule! Ndakali kuyeeya zintu zyakapa kuti Timo afwe. Kulimvwa munzila eeyi, kwakali kupa kuti ndikataazikane.”

Kutayanda kuliswaanizya abamwi. Muntu wafwidwa ulakonzya kutaangunuka nali abamwi. Kostas wakati: “Ndakali kulendelelwa nindakali akati kabantu bakwetene. Alubo ndakali kulimvwa kanditeeleli pe kukkala abantu batakwete.” Mukayintu waIvan uutegwa Yolanda, uchiyeeyede mbaakali kulimvwa. Wakati: “Teezyakali kundijata kabotu pe chiindi bamwi nibakali kwaambuula atala abuyumu-yumu bubaanga mbuniini kuti twabukozyanisya ambutwakaswaana. Alubo bamwi bakali kutubuzya atala abana babo. Ndakali kuziyanda nzibakali kwaambuula pesi chimwi chiindi, kwakali kundiyumina kubaswiilila. Ime amulumaangu twakali kubona kuti buumi mbububede pesi teetwakali kutondeezya moyo mulamfu.”

Kuchiswa. Muntu naafwidwa, kumoyo kulakonzya kusiya alubo ulakonzya kukotela akuba achilabila. Aaron uchiyeeyede zyakachitika kakwiindide munyaka,  wisi naakafwa. Wakati: “Ndakali kuba achilabila. Mazuba woonse ndakali kubuka mansiku achiindi chikozyenie, kandiyeeya kufwa kwandeende.”

Alejandro uchiyeeyede naakali kuchiswa-chiswa zitamvwisisiki. Wakati: “Ndakalangwa-langwa adokotela kwaziindi zyiingi pesi wakati teendakalikwe bulwazi pe. Ndakali kuyeeyela kuti kukataazikana nkuko kwakali kupa kuti ndibonekaanga ndilachiswa.” Zintu eezi zyakazoomana. Nikuba boobo, Alejandro wakachita kabotu nkaambo wakayeeya kuyoobona dokotela. Kukataazikana akaambo kakufwidwa, chimwi chiindi kupa kuti mubili utabeleki kabotu, bulwazi mbulaabo bwiindilile naakuti ube abumwi bulwazi.

Kukachilwa kuchita imwi milimu iiyandikana. Ivan wakati: “Mwanaangu Eric naakafwa, twakeelede kubuzya bamwi, kuswaanizya muntu ngwaakali kubelekela ankwaakali kukkala, kutali nzubo abeenzinyina luzutu. Alubo twakeelede kuzuzikizya mafoomu aasiyene-siyene akali kuyandwa amulawu. Kuyungizya waawo, twakeelede kulangania zintu Eric nzyaakalaazyo. Zyoonse eezi zyakali kuyanda kuti tube bantu babikkila maanu nikuba kuti twakali kukataazikana mumizeezo, mumubili ambutwakali kulimvwa.”

Bamwi balakonzya kuba abuyumu-yumu nikwayandikana kuti bachite imwi milimu yakali kuchitwa amuntu wafwa. Nzizyo zyakachitika kuli Tiina. Wakati: “Mulumaangu Timo nguwe wakali kulangana amakani aakubbenki abbizinesi. Pesi naakafwa, wakali waba mukuli wangu alubo zyakapa kuti ndikataazikane zyiindilide. Ndakali kulibuzya kuti ndizookonzya na kuchita zyoonse eezi kakutakwe nzindikachilwa?”

Buyumu-yumu bweetwa akaambo kakukataazikana mumizeezo, mbulimvwa akumubili bwaambwa ajulu, butondeezya kuti nkuyumu kulwana abuumba bwakufwidwa. Simpe ndyakuti, kufwidwa kulachisa pesi kuziba zikonzya kuchitika kakuchili chiindi, kulakonzya kubagwasya bantu bakafwidwa lino-lino. Tweelede kuziba kuti bantu bafwidwa tabaswaani buyumu-yumu boonse bweetwa akaambo kakufwidwa. Alubo bantu bafwidwa balakonzya kuumbulizigwa kuti baziba kuti kukataazikana akaambo kakufwidwa teekubi pe.

Nzitukonzya kulangilila: Kukataazikana akaambo kakufwidwa teekwalyoonse pe, kunooyabucheya mukuya chiindi. Pesi eezi tazyaambi kuti muntu ulakonzya kulimvwa kuti “waba kabotu” naakuti kutachimuyeeya muntu wakafwa. Kuchiswa moyo akaambo kakufwidwa kunooyabucheya mbichaani-mbichaani. Chimwi chiindi, ulakonzya kuumbaala akaambo kakumuyeeya naakuti akaambo kazintu zichitika mbuuli buzuba bwamuchado naakuti bwakufwa. Pesi nikwayinda chiindi, bantu biingi ngabazibila akusaanguna kuchita milimu yamazuba woonse. Eezi zilakonzeka kuti muntu wafwidwa wagwasigwa abamumpuli naakuti abeenzinyina akuchita zintu zipa kuti alwane abuyumu-yumu oobo.

Kuzootola chiindi chilamfu biyeni? Bamwi balakonzya kukataazikana kwamyeezi miche. Kuli bamwi kulakonzya kumana nikwayinda munyaka uumwi naakuti iibili. Pesi bamwi bayanda chiindi chiindaawo. a Alejandro wakati: “Ime zyakanditolela minyaka iitatu kuti kukataazikana kumane.”

Baamoyo mulamfu. Utalikataazyi alyajuunza, chita kweendelana ambukonzya alubo ziba kuti kukataazikana akaambo kakufwidwa teekwalyoonse pe. Nkinkaako, kuli zintu nzukonzya kuchita na zipa kuti utakataazikani lino akuti utakkali kukataazikene kwachiindi choonse?