mera janam saxony soobe de ik pind vich hoya. eh sooba os vele german lokantri ganraj (g.d.r.) vich si. sadde ghar da mahaul bahut pyaar bharya si atey mere maapya ne mainu shuru to change sanskar sikhaye si. g.d.r. vich os vele samvad da bolbala si jis karke ziadatar lok dharam vich koi dilchaspi nahi lainde san. mai mannda si ki rab hai hi nahi. 18 saal di umar tak mere te sirf do cheeza da asar si, nastikta atey samvad.

mainu samvad bahut pasand si kyoki is vich sikhaya janda si ki asi sare barabar ha. nale mai mannda si ki zameen-jaidad sarya vich barabar vandi jani chaheedi hai. idda karan naal ameer hor ameer atey gareeb hor gareeb nahi honge. so mai ik samvadi sangathan naal ral ke kamm karan lagg pya. jado mai sirf 14 sala da si, ta mai apna kafi sama raddi kagaz nu fir to istemal karan de kamm vich laya jis naal vatavran te changa asar paina si. aau kasbe de lok mere kamm to inne khush san ki utho de adhikariya ne mainu ik puraskar ditta. chhoti umar vich hi meri jaan pachhan g.d.r. de kujh vadde-vadde netava naal hon lagg payi. mainu laggda si ki mai sahi kamm kar reha si atey mera bhavikh sunehra si.

fir ik din achanak meri duniya hi badal gayi. saal 1989 vich berlin di kandh dhaah ditti gayi atey is de naal hi poorbi europe vich samvad khatam ho gaya. mainu ik to baad ik jhatka lagga. jaldi hi mainu pata lagga ki g.d.r. vich shuru to hi beinsaafi hundi aa rehi si. misal layi, jehrre lok samvad da saath nahi dinde san ohna nu neeve darje de nagrik samjhya janda si. eh kidda ho sakda hai? ki samvadi eh nahi mannde ki sare lok barabar han? ki samvad sirf ik dikhava hai? inha galla karke mai pareshan ho gaya.

is karke mai sara kujh chhadd ke apna dhyaan sangeet atey chittarkari vich laun lagga. mai ik sangeet college vich daakhla lai lya jis karke agge ja ke mere kol university jaan da mauka si. mai ik sangeetkar atey chittarkar bannan de supne dekhan lagga. nale mai bachpan vich sikhe apne naitik sanskara nu vi bhull gaya. hun mai sirf maze karna chahunda si. is layi mai bahut sariya kudiya naal ghummna-firna shuru kar ditta. par sangeet, chittrkari atey ghumman-firan naal vi meri pareshani ghati nahi. itho tak ki meriya banaiya tasveera to vi dar jhalkda si. bhavikh vich ki hovega? zindagi da maksad ki hai?

akheer mainu apne savaala de javab mil hi gaye. ohna da javab jaan ke mai hairan reh gaya. ik shaam mai college vich kujh vidyaarthiya naal bhavikh bare gal kar reha si. ohna vich ik mandy * na di kudi vi si jo yahovah di gavah si. os shaam os ne mainu sahi salah ditti. os ne keha: “andreas, je tu apni zindagi atey bhavikh bare sare savaala de javab janne chahunda hai, ta dhyaan naal bible parh ke dekh.”

mainu oh di gal te yakeen ta nahi hoya, par mai jaanna vi chahunda si. is layi mai bible parhan da faisla keeta. mandy ne mainu daniel di kitab da dooja adhiaye dikhaya jis nu parh ke mai dang reh gaya. is bhavikhbani vich ohna vishav-shaktiya atey sarkara bare dassya gaya hai jehrriya ajj sadde same naal gehra sambandh rakhdiya han. mandy ne mainu bible to bhavikh vich pooriya hon valiya bhavikhbaniya vi dikhaiya. akheer mainu apne savaala de javab milan lagge! par eh bhavikhbaniya kis ne likhiya atey kaun bhavikh bare bilkul sahi-sahi dass sakda hai? ki is da matlab rab sach-much hai?

mandy ne mainu horst atey angeliks na de jode naal milaya, oh yahovah de gavah san. ohna ne parmeshwar de bachan nu hor changi tarha samjhan vich meri madad keeti. jaldi hi mainu pata lagg gaya ki sirf yahovah de gavaha da sangathan hi lagatar parmeshwar da na yahovah vartda hai atey lokaa nu is bare dassda hai. (zaboor 83:18; matti 6:9) mai sikhya ki yahovah parmeshwar har viakti nu sohni dharti te hamesha layi jeen di umeed dinda hai. zaboor 37:9 vich likhya hai: “jehrre yahovah te umeed laaunde han, oh dharti de varas banange.” eh gal mere dil nu chhooh gayi ki har koi jehrra bible vich dasse parmeshwar de myaara mutabak chalan di koshish karda hai oh hamesha di zindagi pa sakda hai.

par mere layi bible mutabak zindagi jeeuni bahut aukhi si. ik kamyab sangeetkar atey chittarkar hon karke mere vich ghamand aa gaya si. is layi sabh to pehla mainu nimar banna paina si. nale mere layi anaitik kamm chhaddne vi saukhe nahi san. mai yahovah da bahut shukarguzar ha ki oh ohna lokaa naal dheeraj, daya atey humdardi naal pesh aaunda hai jo bible mutabak chalan di poori koshish karde han!

18 sala di umar tak samvad atey nastikta ne meri zindagi te asar paya. par os to baad hun tak bible meri zindagi badaldi aa rehi hai. is vicho sikhiya galla karke mai hun apni zindagi ja bhavikh bare soch ke darda nahi. nale hun meri zindagi da ik maksad hai. sann 1993 vich mai baptisma lai ke yahovah da gavah bann gaya atey sann 2000 vich mai tabitha naal viah kara lya, oh vi yahovah di gavah hai. asi apna ziadatar sama doojya nu bible bare sikhaun ’cha laaunde ha. asi bahut sare lokaa nu milde ha. ohna vicho kayi samvadi atey nastik hunde han, jidda mai pehla si. jado mai ohna nu dassda ha ki oh yahovah parmeshwar nu kidda jaan sakde han, ta mainu bahut sakoon milda hai.

pehla-pehel jado mai yahovah de gavaha naal milna-julna shuru keeta si, ta mere maapya nu bilkul changa nahi lagga. par fir ohna ne dekhya ki yahovah de gavaha naal milan-julan karke meri zindagi te bahut vadiya asar pya hai. mai bahut khush ha ki hun oh vi bible parhde han atey masihi sabhava te aaunde han.

mai te tabitha apne viah to bahut khush ha atey asi vyaahe jodya nu ditti bible di salah te chalan di koshish karde ha. misal layi, ik-dooje de vafadar bane rehen di salah te chalan karke sadda rishta hor mazboot ho reha hai.—ibraniya 13:4.

hun mai bhavikh ja apni zindagi bare soch ke pareshan nahi hunda. mainu laggda hai ki mai poori duniya vich faile yahovah de gavaha de parivar da hissa ha, jithe shanti atey ekta hai. mai hamesha to eh mannda aaya ha ki sare insaan barabar han. eh gal mainu yahovah de gavaha vich dekhan nu mili. mai ehi ta chahunda si.